Jim's health, answers to question, thank yous, and a bit of me rambling

Hi Everyone:

Jim first.

He's not doing so well. Lots of pain, from the neupogen shot from low white blood cells. His red are probably down too, but you have to be mostly drained before they give you blood here because of low levels. Pray for him, that he will feel a bit better. John and Leah are coming tomorrow, and he would like to be able to smile, rather than moan at them. Poor guy. Despite him doing better, it's very hard to see him like this. I remember last Christmas how much pain he was in. He went back into the hospital the day after Christmas. I think that's when Jim will be at his lowest point this year as well, with this treatment. We do hope afterwards we can come home.

Pray for me, too. One of the things I was moaning about the past few days, that I didn't mention is that I have impetigo on my face. I had it last year, December 12th to be exact. Caught it at the hospital too. I had to find a pharmacy, have my doctor phone in a prescription, blah blah blah. So, I'm under the weather a bit myself fighting off this nasty infection feeling like that guy in Princess Bride who ran the Pit of Despair. Remember him, with the nasty sores on his mouth. I need my sister here saying, "Quit picking your nails. Quit biting your nails." "Quit rubbing your face."

Thank you.

Thank you to all friends and family and our church who have sent your love to us while we have been here. No matter what form it arrived in, it has touched our hearts. Really. Despite my moaning. We have been so blessed by everyone's outreach to us. We don't think we could have handled it half as well as we have without it. We mean it from the bottom of our hearts.

Jesus, Bible and Feelings

I really appreciate everybody's input, I really do. And it blesses me, too. It does. I just feel out loud often, and when I do, I hate it. But I'm not going to beat myself up. I put to words, what often other people feel, but won't say or write. I know I'm not alone. I put a huge price on truth, and that's why I struggle so much when my feelings don't line up with the truth. I will never throw the truth out (God, God's word) , but I find myself not being able to throw away my feelings either, and I end up in turmoil. So, I had a spiritual temper tantrum. That's what I call it. It's been a while since I've had one. Self pity is the fuel that gets the spiritual temper tantrum going. I used to be way worse. Nobody knows more than my friend Elaine. Huh, Elaine. There I was, this huge pendulum swinging this way and then that way, extreme this way and that way. I used to drive her nuts. I'm way good now. ;) Actually, it's not something I am ashamed of or that I will apologize for. It's who I am, and God's working on me. I might leave you crazy, but I'll never leave you bored. ;)

And you know what...I appreciate your input still, cause it lets me know you love me and care for me, so thanks guys, even though I did threaten you with your eyeballs.

Bathroom Answers

Amy, I wet myself.

Kristen, tell Lar thanks, but I don't need the pot. I wet myself. LOL.

10 years ago
Jim said, "you are a fishing man's dream."
I asked, "why hon, cause I catch so many fish?"
He said, "no, it's because I can take you out on the boat, and you're good for 8 hours."

So, there's your answer.

Or it could that that maybe I borrowed one of Jim's Depends. LOL. Just kidding. No, Jim has not used Depends yet. He would kill me if I left you all thinking that. When one nurse suggested it, he said, "I'll never be that sick."

Okay, this conversation is going down the toilet....now how do I transition to Merry Christmas everyone? I guess I'll just go for it.

Merry Christmas everyone. In case I can't write, and I'm sure you will all be busy with your loved ones as well. Merry Christmas. Christmas really is in the heart. Thank you all for helping it arrive in our hearts through your love.

Love Jim and Gloria (Dolly)