update

Nothing has changed Jim wise.  He had a little of a better day, and then today not so good.  I am doing a bit better.  I still don't have the energy or desire to go to lunch, or chit chat, however, I am turning on the phones so that people who volunteer to help can reach me.  But really, we love you, but just don't care to talk about it.  I mean going on 5 years, really...what is there left to say.  And I have nothing to chat chat about.  I don't want to talk about how hard this is, how hard I work.  I'm not reading good books, going to the movies, so...You know?

I did go to bible study today, and will finish this study, particularly since we are doing Matthew and chapter 24 mentions enduring, and as a Disciple I want to live by example.  I want to be an example for the women in my class to not give up, so I guess I have to not give up myself.  Not that I would even know what it means to give up....but... I am really really pressing into Him so that I don't.  It's certainly not adrenaline that motivates me anymore.

I know that last 2 years have been extremely hard and if Jim continues to decline, it's only going to get harder.  It saddens me and scares me, and most of the time, I don't know what to do.  So, please don't take it personal.  Trust me, you DON'T get it.  And I'm glad for you.  You wouldn't want to get it.

Okay, so.

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