I'm so weary. One would think it would help that I'm studying/prepping for the Precept study on Exodus, considering all things. One would think the insight would help my soul. One would think my Leyl Shimmering, my crossing of the sea, my deliverance, my desert journey, my bitter waters being changed sweet would be the sustinance I would need for yet another trek across the dry land of my soul that.... OKAY, ENOUGH OF THAT POETIC BS.
My ear and face are numb. Scary numb. It feels like someone took my cheek and ear and cut them off and put on a cadaver's cheek and ear, as I can't feel them, and they are hard. As a rock. I touch them, and they feel dead. But they're not cold. They are hot and swollen. I'm on an antibiotic, that I never heard, and the only bad thing it has a high chance of doing to me is giving me C-diff. REALLY DOC? wow. My left side of my face is twice the size of my right side. I hurts like H E double hockey sticks. I can't eat, or it swells even more. I'm missing out on the last nice days of summer. I just wanted to go to A STINKING LOUSY LAKE BEACH FOR 2 DAYS, YOU KNOW, LORD THE BEACH WHERE THERE IS POOP IN THE WATER, ERIE???? That's not too much to ask, I thought? (excuse me while I have yet another pitty party) waaaaaaaaaaa waaaaaaaaaaa waaaaaaaaaa. Okay, I'm back. Let's see. Well, Jim is in pain, trying to help me. So, forget all that, and what that means. um.... I have a cup of water in my chin hanging there. It took the doctors 4 hours to get the stone out, so I have no idea how long this will take to heal. I'm just really sore, really sad, really lonely, really tired, really....
Oh, but satan, I'm still leading bible study on Monday, freak or no freak. Nice try, pal. But YOU LOSE, GRACE WINS. again. Ha ha ha ha ha, you pathetic, created, controlled, ball of nothing. :-p-~~~~~~~~~~ Nice try, ignoramous. IS THAT ALL YOU GOT????
